woman....if I hadn’t done it, can you guarantee me that I would walk at all? Maybe my kids have a mother who is a killer, but they  have a mother.....I’m not sorry he’s dead....I don’t know if I would do it again...but I’m not sorry it happened.....


DENISE
I’m sorry it happened....I’d give my own life in a second to bring back Jack, but I didn’t kill him, he died, I know, and he died in my arms, I know that too, but that’s all I know, I swear, how could I kill him? Why would I kill him? He was my baby....my little boy, I could never hurt him. He just died.....I know they said I shook him, but I didn’t...I don’t know why the medical tests showed that....there were no marks on his body.....I never shook him...Yes, he cried alot,  but would I kill him for that? Would you? He just died. No, he wasn’t sick, not that I know, but he must have had something wrong...he died....I thought maybe it was Sudden Infant Death Syndrome, but after the autopsy they said, No, couldn’t be....how can they know that it couldn’t be if they hardly know what causes that?......they said there was evidence of shaking...but what evidence? Maybe he was born with his brain like that, how can they know what a three week old child’s brain should look like....it was a very difficult birth....the doctor couldn’t be reached for hours and when he arrived it all happened so fast....all the pulling and, I don’t know, he just died......why does there have to be a reason we can point to? Yes, the obstetrician testified that Jack was perfectly normal and that there were not problems during the delivery.....
My husband? You mean my ex-husband. He blames me too....said he wouldn’t stay married to a baby killer......but I didn’t kill Jack, he just died....the obstetrician wanted me to claim  post partum depression...said he would say that I had symptoms in the hospital and that we had talked about possibly going on medication...but I didn’t , we never had such a conversation....I would remember that...my husband said that with all